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That last batch of pictures I've just uploaded are the last I'll be submitting to DeviantART.
I'm not going to deactivate my account but I won't be uploading any more images here, to a website that's played an important part in my life.

I first heard about dA from elbooga when we were in first year in college. It was the first time I'd seen art from so many amateurs in one place. I don't mean amateur in any kind of pejorative sense, but just a place for people who enjoy making pictures, some of whom maybe have aspirations of becoming professional some day, to upload art and submit it to the criticism of strangers.
Louise said I should sign up.
I said I would if she would.
So we did.

To silence, initially, but gradually the comments dripped in. None of the malice or disdain that would go on to define the feeling of setting foot into Youtube, just compliments. In the long run, that can obviously lead to abject complacency, as I've seen in a few people, but I was getting constructive criticism in college on my animation and film-making. On dA I was somebody who painted for fun and the positive feedback made me want to paint even more. I loved the moment of uploading something and immediately refreshing the inbox to see if there were any +favs, comments or *gasp* a +devwatch.
The watching and being watched was so dynamic. When my painting hit a slump and I took up photography, I started watching completely different people and started being followed by photographers. The same again when I started doing digital photomanipulation. Then warm 'welcome home's when I started painting again and the patient followers who'd obviously sat silent and bored by my appearance in their devwatch inboxes during my photography phase seemed happy to see new paintings from me.
It's a pity my gallery doesn't represent a perfect visual illustration of these phases. I've had a few too many self-conscious ponce moments over the years and deleted some old pictures (basically the whole first year is gone and plenty more since then), but I always tried to fight it so there's still plenty of crap in there.

The reason I'm quitting is pretty simple. Initially, I was scared of uploading my art. I preferred to just draw and keep it to myself. Eventually, I started to like uploading, then loved it. dA particularly. It wasn't just the comments, but seeing other galleries, and talking to different artists which in some cases turned into a kind of real friendship (if you can imagine such a thing), notably flesh-was-sweet (now DevDead) and fasth
But now I'm 27. I spend a lot of time on the internet. I won't apologise or regret just how much I fucking love the internet, but there's so much great, inspiring (so amazing it's depressing) art to look at, so much to see and do, that I'm not spending nearly enough time on my own art.

I've deleted my facebook, I'm weaning myself off the nonconstructive internet island-hopping that eats up my day and I'm going to make something happen because things have been frustrating. It's strange to think that I've wanted to be an illustrator for a long time now and, in 2011, I finally illustrated a book. Then another one. Then another one. In the space of about four months. But I don't feel like I've accomplished anything. I don't care that my name's on Amazon. I don't care that I can say "I've been published".
Those are things that I thought were my goals.
It turns out they're not.
It turns out that goals are kinda shit.
All I want now is to be happy with what I'm producing and I can't get better by spending as much time as I do on the internet.

So, like I said, I'm not deleting my account but I am sort of formally leaving.
I want to say really really REALLY REALLY big thanks to everyone who's commented and followed me and been so nice and supportive over the last 7 years (almost 8 years!)
It means so much to me and it's all part of the reason that I am now no longer the amateur I was when I signed up.

I hope that those of you who like my work and want to see what happens in the future will stick with me.
I have a fairly regularly-updated blog @

and my portfolio site and original art shop:

and on twitter

TL;DR Goodbye deviantART and thank you
- Ciaran
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xpsuedoxangelx Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I understand and know how you feel. I have considered doing the same, as I don't spend anywhere near as much time as I'd like on any of my art....
that said, I'm +watch'ing you, in hopes that you will come back in future, as I know many who have (including myself), and will patiently wait for that day. Your art is amazing - in all it's forms - and I would like to be just one more of those that raises their hands in awe and inspiration.

Best of luck, and I hope you create some amazing things while you're gone.
ShabbyChick Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
Best of luck Ciaran with all that you choose to do!! I will miss you here on DA but looking forward to hearing more about all your cool work in the future!! <3
Ghj Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2012  Professional General Artist
best of luck with wherever you are, whatever you choose doing
karatechick13 Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
All the best! We'll miss you!
louisroskosch Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2012  Professional
im a bit curious how making 4 books left you so unsatisfied? are you not happy with your efforts in them or you just realised you want to do something else?
NunoDias Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2012  Professional Interface Designer
Ulysses-31 Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2012
Well, you're a great artist so wherever you go i'm sure you'll prosper. It can be a hard decision to make, to cut out the noise in one's life, but it is the right one. I wonder sometimes how many thousands of people out there waste their lives by getting obsessed with the minutiae of life rather than pushing themselves forward. Social networking all too often becomes a form of procrastination, that has only gained acceptability through the sheer numbers of people who participate in it. Good luck.
heartMelinda Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2012   Traditional Artist
I totally understand. One day I would like to do the same thing. An internet/ electronics fast. Good luck!
DaniBb Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2012
So sad that I won't see more of your art here on DA, but wishing you the best of luck and happiness in your life
chewedmelon Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2012  Professional General Artist
This is moving and inspiring. I hope it works out for you.

All the best!

ikazon Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012   Writer
It's a shame to see you go from here, but your reasoning makes sense, and I have no doubt you'll be successful, no matter where you go. Wishing you the best, Ciaran! :ahoy:
getmecoffee Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012
Deviantart loses one of its greatest! I can understand how all consuming the internet can be. Best of luck with the future. :)
paperfetish Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012
This is both sad and exciting news. I am disappointed to lose an artist whose work I appreciate and whose presence has added to the community. However, it is exciting to hear that you are making this decision to refocus on your work and its direction and that you have provided the links for those of us who are interested in following your work.

Good luck in all your future endeavors; personal, professional and artistic. I hope our internet paths cross again.
wanderinatnight Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012
Good luck!
SethFitts Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012  Professional Traditional Artist
I understand you leaving. I have been going back and forth over the idea (different reasons for leaving). Thanks for the links to your shop and Twitter acct. I will keep an eye out for new works!
cybergranny Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Ohh I'll miss you, but I totally understand you.
I will check your blog from time to time and I really wish you lots of fun with your art.
MarinaVeselinovic Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012  Professional General Artist
rhave2 Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012
Farewell then, we'll miss you :(
Duzloo Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012  Professional Interface Designer
I hope you still log on from time to time and drop a "hi!".
Anyways, I've saved your blog link! And good luck with everything, I hope you'll be fine!

abasss Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012

We'll miss you!
RussCook Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012
Keep on creatin'!
stephi-g Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012  Professional Traditional Artist
I'll miss you.
Finnguala Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012  Professional General Artist

Good luck, Ciaran.
Originami Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2012
You will be very sorely missed. I adore your work, and it never fails to bring a smile to my face. I hope that you leave your gallery up, as it's an amazing and beautiful source of inspiration for not only myself, but I'm sure many others as well. Best of luck to you in your endeavors! :)
leftb4right Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2012
OH! fairwell then!
i hope that this transition brings you many blessings!
Doubtful-Della Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2012  Professional Photographer
You know my kids and I are going to miss seeing your work. You are one of the few artists that I made sure to keep up with even during my DA hiatuses!
Tordo Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I almost cried reading this, I feel the same on some points about DA and I guess that's why I understand and respect your decision, when it's time to move on you have to move on, so as much as is sad to see people leave, you have respect that.

So good luck, I'm sure with a talent like yours things will become better and better. :manhug:
porcelanita Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2012  Professional Traditional Artist
You are incredibly talented and I hope this opens a new phase for you and your work. I can relate almost 100% with what you are feeling right now and have a similar history myself. I am about to turn 27 and have illustrated five books so far, but I am also feeling I need to enjoy more what I do, and make the best out of it-
The Internet tends to be a distraction most of the time, and to improve and develop styles and techniques one has to make choices. To actually spend time doodling, scribbling, watching living things... I am in this dilema too right now so I truly hope you find your way and make your art reach the stars!!! (so corny haha)

Good luck and I'll be following you on blogspot! mine is: [link]

ArtBIT Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I can respect the decision to reduce distraction and focus more on your art. I hope you'll accomplish what you're aspiring for.
I'll check your blog from time to time.

Good luck man. :ahoy:
TeresaClark Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2012  Professional General Artist
Guess I'll see you in blogland then.

(...btw I always thought you were older. I've watched you since 2008 and you seemed always so professional, not amateur at all.)
JeanGreyfan Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
ok fine...if i can't see your work on dA, then i will just have to follow you on the other sites...your work is truly awesome and it always makes me smile when i see a new one and i always go "wow...that is cool!"
cogwurx Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2012  Professional Interface Designer
That's a bummer. I so enjoy your work, I'll miss seeing it on dA.
Off to twitter to follow.
SNOman233 Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2012  Student General Artist
Good luck on your life art journey without us. Thank you for the art that was so great to look at. As one of your fans, i'm truly sad to see you go. Thanks again and good luck.
toerning Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2012
Shoot! We'll miss you! I totally respect what you're doing, though, good for you for making positive resolutions! We'll keep watching you at your blog! :heart:
ArtOfEdge Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
Aww, sad to see you go but I'll be watching your blog :heart: I wish you all the best in the future :)
oscinis Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2012  Hobbyist Interface Designer
Sorry to see you go, but your reasons are valid and completely understandable. Looks like I have a new blog to keep up with, though :)
Slothboy3000 Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2012
Seriously good luck out there. Your deviations have been some of the best to pop up in my inbox. :)
VCR-WOLFE Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2012   Filmographer
Good luck out there!
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